Chiaria Entry No. 4: December 31, 2008
Well it is Dec. 31, 2008 and I have agreed with Jessi to get the ball rolling toward surgery. She has been very stressed with everything going on with me lately. I now have nausea every time that I eat. Not enough to send me to the bathroom to vomit but enough to be uncomfortable and aggravated with it.
I have elected not to run Fire calls at the station unless I can do so without being in an operatational role. I feel that my balance is too bad to allow me to be in operational situations. I am afraid of falling or having a problem and getting hurt or worse, getting one of my peers hurt. My chief doesn’t want me to take medical leave. He wants me to stay involved in other ways. I can do that. It actually means a lot to me to be around the gang.
I did however get my Christmas wish. Christmas Eve and Day were pain free with minimal other problems. I was able to enjoy the kids opening presents and the rest of the family getting together. It was a terrific Christmas. Jimmy got the kids all Nerf guns that shoot the soft bullets. The adults had as much fun with them as the kids. Maggie got here cell phone which was classic. She opened everything and no phone then we called her phone and had here find it and answer.. When she answered I told here Merry Christmas and to thank her Nanny. The look on her face was the best. Jessi got me an audio book because reading for long periods causes problems. She also got me a titanium wedding band because I have bent and broken my gold one at work. It is perfect for me. She also got me a St. Christophers medal that I put on immediately. She did so good but was so worried that I wouldn’t like it. I loved the gifts they were thoughtful and expressed her need to help take care of me and make things easier and at the same time they were things that I needed and wanted. What can I say she loves me.
Anyway. I am definetly going to UPMC for surgery and for a second opinion at Cleveland Clinic. A couple of different family members have offered to help with bills like our house payment while I am off work. What a blessing. Not much else to say today so I will leave it at that.